Forgiveness

Forgiveness (Blog Post)

It was a Saturday morning when I had to work.
Little did I know that a great lesson was waiting for me behind one of these closed doors…

 

Just like any other patient, I approached this frail looking old man wanting to help him with his daily needs. He had a non-rebreathable mask (the kind of mask you see on television when someone is very sick) over his nose and mouth. He clearly had difficulty breathing. As I went closer, I realised his fingers and toes were grossly purple – a sign that there’s insufficient oxygen to the extremities.

 

“Oh dear, this man is very sick.” I thought. 

 

Following this thought, I immediately connected with the reports that were passed in the morning. There’s a man in our cubicle that is on DNR or AND. In our hospital, A.N.D means Allow Natural Death, so no active medical interventions will be done if his conditions deteriorates – as it is determined by the physicians and agreed by the patient and the family that there will be no quality of life with aggressive medical interventions. He is also on palliative care, meaning that comfort measures will be provided for him until he moves on.

 

I tried to assist him in whatever way he needed because he was very weak. I gave him some fruits and a few sips of coffee. As I was doing so, I also realised that his mental capacity remains intact. I talked to him about a few things in a slow manner, because after every sentence, he had to catch a few breaths…
In the midst of the activities, I also noticed this letter at the bedside. On the envelope, it said “To Daddy”…

 

“What could be inside this letter?” I thought.
“Who wrote this?”
“Is it something very serious?”

 

Shortly after, I re-entered the room with the palliative nurse after I cleared some of the utensils that was used earlier on. The palliative nurse went on to do his assessment to make sure that he can give him the comfort. Is there a broken skin? Is he in pain? Is there something that he need to know for a good closure?

 

“There’s a letter for you, Sir. Do you want to read it?” asked the palliative nurse.
“Yes…but I…need spectacles…” he said. 

 

The palliative nurse and I tried to find the spectacles but couldn’t. So we asked if we could read it out for him. He said, “Yes…, Please…” and he let out a heavy breath…

 

The letter went,
“Hello Daddy,
Thank you for bringing us into the world.
We know that you have done a lot of wrongs in the past, but we want you to know that we have forgiven you.
Hope you will have a better next life.
Thank you and bye bye.
God bless.
Son & Family

 

Silence fell in the room. The oxygen coming out from the peak flow meter was deafening.

 

“Thanks….means… a lot” the man said, sounding like he choked on air. Then we gently provided an assuring touch/pat on his shoulders…

 

This was a moment that I really want to remember and encapsulate.
This was a moment of reconciliation between 2 generations.
This was a moment that clicked with me on the inside.
As a nurse, I can be a bridge to many.
This is what I want to do for others.
And this is also why I want to share this story with you (the reader).

 

Because in the life of this dying man and his family, I see that forgiveness and reconciliation can happen at the end of the day and at the end of one’s journey.

 

And if that is true, it can also happen now.
Why wait for the end?

 

Because if we can see that you and I are imperfect…
That sometimes people who are supposed to protect us can also hurt us…and we who are supposed to protect can also hurt someone we love…
We will understand that we all need forgiveness.
And forgiveness brings about reconciliation.

 

This is just like why Jesus came down 2000years ago for us.
So that we may receive forgiveness through the cross.
That we may have a relationship back with God.

 

Don’t wait until your last breath.
The goodness of a restored relationship awaits after reconciliation.

 

Forgiveness is an act.
Forgiveness is a process to a restoration.
Forgiveness is your decision.
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The Reversal

Seen this intro video in church?

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Curious to know more about how the video came about?
Here’s your answer!
The idea of the video was to use the allegory of a reverse poem to illustrate the redemptive nature of God.
Although we may sometimes see things negatively, God sees it in the reverse way. He sees it as positive. There’s always good in the seemingly bad situation.
 

And we wanted to illustrate just that.

 

How we did it was through the use of the reverse poem. What this means is that when you read the poem backwards, it still makes sense and the meaning changes completely.
So after conceiving the idea, we had to begin storyboarding.
Zhiyi and I gathered the references of the feel we wanted then we began taking photos and footages.
The real challenge, however,was to get the reverse poem to sound right. There were many drafts and changes to the structure of the poem as well as the person voicing the words.
It has to sound right.
For this to happen, there was much teamwork involved. Special credits to Mong, Chester who helped with the script and Mac who helped with the voicing!

 

So the reverse poem goes…
“ My life has no purpose
And I refuse to believe that
With God I can make a difference
People tell me that life is meaningless
And I hate it when
I have to stand against the crowd
To speak out for what is right
All I care about is my own success
Because it doesn’t make any sense that
Life’s actually about living for others
That life isn’t living for myself “
(Now, read it backwards!)

 

What we wanted to say is that…
When our lives have no purpose…
When we have doubts…
And when we are so discouraged and dejected that we lost hope of our dreams..our visions..our future…

 

God is always there to do the “The Reversal”.
He draws near the most when we are in the dumps.
THEN…

 

Our mindsets are changed.
Hearts are renewed.
Bad experiences turns into valuable lessons for our future.
Brokenness pours out anointing on our lives.
Even when you feel like your life is so smoothing sailing and you don’t really need God…
When you open up your life for God to move..
He will add the vision, the purpose…the drive and the adventure for your life!

 

If you are a Christian and never experienced a breakthrough and miracle in your life…Believe for one.
If you are lost in life…
Look to Jesus and He will give you the direction.
If you are discouraged…
Hear God and He will transform your minds and perspective.
If you haven’t watched the intro video…
Go to church and see it for yourself !! 🙂